This post is in response to a nomination for the “Liebster Award” sent to me by buczthebeginning on 2nd May 2014.
First of all thank you buczthebeginning for the nomination, I am happy that you came to Practical Realities and read stuff that you eventually kinda… liked. Now, the answers to your questions (some of which I found a little umm… in need for honest replies but also you know… kinda… purrsonal at the same time 😛 Gawd! Do I lack guts!):
#1How did you come up with the name you used for your blog?
I decided to call Practical Realities that because I sometimes think that a lot of the world (may be an exaggerated estimate) dopes on dreamy lies of happiness, success and satisfaction. Form the beginning of life most of us adapt to feeding on a constant stream of ideas, events and happenings that are inaccurate, incomplete renditions or even gross misrepresentations of the dynamics of existence. As we grow up our ideas of beauty, love, friendship, bravery, strength and courage etc.. are all processed, deformed and molded to fit into universal (and mostly incorrect) stereotypes, so that by the time we are all grown up, our judgment and perceptions are impaired, our ability to think deeply – dead and the compass that could direct us to some place of our own personal truth – rusty, broken and forgotten. I wanted Practical Realities to resound the element of the not-so-palatable truth. The truth that we are conniving, unscrupulous, jackasses that say something, do something else and think that we are saying and doing totally different stuff. That we lie to everyone, including ourselves and then cry about the outcomes of our own evil life plots. That – we are essentially crazy people. I wanted to be true and candid and talk about that sort of real stuff on this blog. So I called it Practical Realities. But now that I think of it, it might just have been one of those days when I have my invisible, misanthropic-wicked-lady shades on. They significantly distorts the real picture in a negative way… so both I guess.
#2What types of things elevate your mood to a better place?
Chocolate, binge eating, mountains hikes, physical exercise, dogs, cuddles & hugs, awesome music, winning something hard to get and when nothing works (much needed) therapy.
#3What types of things lower your mood?
Failure, reminders of my past with bullies, strained relationships, rejection, being not-so-good-looking, being not-so-slim, being made fun of, saying stupid stuff, not being able to do stuff on my own (failure) especially when I am alone, not being able to understand other people’s perspectives (and then being make fun of or otherwise).
#4How long ago did you first discover you had a problem? Was it an event that happened?
I discovered very recently that I was developing BPD symptoms. My aunt is a psychologist. She brought up the issue because, my mom was concerned I has showing social withdrawal symptoms. They gave me some pretty long questionnaires to answer and then we saw a therapist. She said it was not conclusive that I had BPD but I had symptoms. So they advised me to make conscious efforts at normalizing things on the social front. That’s also supposed to be a test for discerning if everything is normal up there. Before this I had already gone into therapy for depression four years back. There was no specific event. I mostly got sucked into it quicksand-slowly. I didn’t take medication. There was a lot of therapy though.
#5How do you deal with things when your mentality and/or emotions are going in the wrong directions?
I directly go to sleep. If that is not possible, I cry as much as I want to, that relieves me, if that is also not possible, I hit the gym, that does wonders and I don’t know why it is not on the top of my list. If the negativity thing is just starting eating chocolate and loosing myself in a movie helps. If I am fully in it then writing sort of helps.
#6Are you currently seeing any type of doctor, therapist, social worker, etc? If so, for how long?
Actually, I just got off that part. It had the BPD warning class. I took two sessions, but I am constantly in touch with my psycho(logist) aunt.
#7Do you think reading others’ blogs help you?
Sure. It gives you a lot of creative ideas and you are able to live parts of other people’s lives. But some of the blogs that I follow are also pretty depressing. People write stuff like, “I hate myself – the end” (that was a post) and other stuff about how miserable they are making other people feel because they have BPD or Bi-Polar and stuff. That is just sad because there is too much of it, everywhere. Other blogs inspire me and yet others make me laugh. I love reading about new things people are doing, new places they are discovering and new perspectives.
#8Does certain types of music change your mood? How far can music take your mood?
At the gym music works wonders, but when the “Life Is Grim and Useless” attacks, that I have, are on full force that same music just sounds like tish-tish-tush-tush-kachaang-kachaang-blah-blah-blah. During workouts and walks it really makes me think everything is going to be all super right. In that area it works – super!
#9Other than writing, how else do you spend your free time?
Sleeping, reading, thinking, talking, walking, running, watching movies, listening to Osho discourses.
#10Do you have any regrets? (I know this can bring up some huge things, but I know I think about mine all the time)
#11Lastly, Do you think recovery is possible?
If it is not – what the hell, whatever.
If it is – great!
- If you knew, the world’s (including you) going to stop existing in the next one hour, what would you do?
- What was your most intense dream?
- Most embarrassing thing that has happened to you?
- Who do you hate most and why?
- The biggest lie you have ever said.
- What your favourite book and why?
- What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done?
- If you were to create a piece of art, what would the subject be?
- What’s the stupidest thing you’ve ever done?
- Where would you go in a time travel machine?
- What’s the absolute best vacation you can imagine?